To send, or not to send..

i'm glad we can still be friends. they're all good people.
but i'm wrought with indecision. i don't know what is better.. the right thing to do- since when do i do the right things?

how can something so amazing have been so wrong?
was it habit, or happiness
fear, or thrill
excitement, or anxiety
love, or instinct.

will it ever be the same
should it?