it's now saturday. soon to be a saturday night very much like last weekend... no one is doing anything, and i'll end up sitting home with a joint and watching crappy saturday night tv. except my parents are home, and that means even the joint will be a lost cause since i'd have to go for a walk, and it's raining.

i can almost feel myself growing bitter, except i'm tired in the 'worn out and overworked' kind of way, so i'm too numb to really do anything about it.

i could go out- but it'd mean going out alone, which is probably worse than watching tv alone. and it gets old pretty fast.

when did i get so dependent?