To all those

for those of you requiring more information, since i know i've been being quite vague lately. i find it hard to talk about things right away..

Well, I found myself in a particularly difficult situation this week, as ben and i broke up last friday night. it wasn't really a surprise, since we both knew things had been very wrong for a while. but after 4 years it's still not something i wanted to happen. Kel happened to be here at the time, and provided some much needed relief and support. meanwhile, we're living together until *this* friday, because that's when the moving truck comes. the weekend was hard, and long, as it seemed we couldn't speak or look at each other without ending up in another fit of tears. i spent the next night on Tristan's couch and tried to distract myself as much as possible this week.

it's getting easier, now that the truth has had time to settle in, and we've moved on to dealing with the logistics of getting everything packed for friday.

as to the last post- it's something i take seriously enough that i'd prefer to talk about it in person. ask me some other time.